Ay Caramba!

Mexican vacation, here I come! Happy New Year to everybody else, I'll be back in a week with a gorgeous tan!

Material Girl

Hi there! Guess who I am! Go on, guess!
You may think it's Kat, and you would be kinda sorta right, but kinda sorta wrong, too! Isn't that fabulous!? Okay...lemme start from the beginning.
Way way way way way back in seventh and most of eighth grade, Kat was me; Katie, the Valley Girl of Pink Doom. Then she decided it was all a crock, and started to be more of a rebel, fighting back against the icky tyranny of Ms Hall, the math teacher of many a painful hour. We are SO not going to get into the punk phase she went into in grade nine. I, as a personality, was supressed. It took Katie a little while to stop saying "ptcha!", but she got over it, also gaining a sense of loathing for anything pink. And lil' ol' me was castaway in the dark scary places of Katie's 13-year-old brain. I blame it on the eyebrow piercing.
Aaaaanyway, so then, like, she went to high school, with her new name, and really started to find herself. She also started tying her shoes. And then high school happened. I wasn't paying much attention...I was giving myself a pedicure. So now, she's got long hair, the tattoo, the piercings, lots of skirts, and I would have to admit Kat, or Katie, whoever you know her as, has become a fairly well rounded individual.
Until today.
On Boxing Day, Kat got a pair of fabulous boots. I am talking fabulous! I mean, she's always been a bit of a girly girl, but not obsessed with brand names and make-up and all that jazz. But she got these boots, and today, she and her mother (in a good mood) went to Market Mall. To shop for a swimsuit, you see. And a what a swimsuit! They went to Swimco, and I took over Kat's mind! Muahahahhahahahaaaaa! I was impatient, as she stopped at the pet store to hold a cockatiel, who she temporarily named Lemon Merangue. So, once I got control, she tried on, like, a bazillion suits, some of which were ultra cute, some which were abominations, but in the end, she selected the one that, had you told her she's be getting yesterday, she'd punch you seventy-five different ways and then shove the 3 inch heel of her new boots right up your ass. It's a tankini, with a halter top, and it's well...Ralph Lauren...and it was $80.00...on sale...but it's a small price to pay for how frickin' great she looks in it!
Oh...you want to know what colour it is?
Well...
Okay...don't be scared...
It's um....
Eeeeek...


pink.


I know, I know, I was surprised too, but...it's just so freaking amazing! Anyway, the major splurge on a bathing suit was not all! Her mother took her to Old Navy, where she got flip-flop sandals for the beach, and a great little green fleecy sweater. They went to Garage Co. and she got a sweet-ass pair of sweatpants, a great t-shirt that brings out her eyes, and two sweatshirts, one khaki green and the other black. Talk about a shopping spree, paid for in full by her mom.
But it doesn't end there.
They went to Shoppers, where she had her make-up professionally done! It looks so great! She bought some great make-up for everyday wear! Isn't that, like, the coolest thing!?
What?
No, Kat, no, I'm having so much fun in the driver's seat of your mind I-
AUUUUUUUUUGH!!!
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..Sorry about that. This is me, Kat. I apologize for this highly skitzophrenic post, but my actual brain is a wee bit tired, so I thought I'd let the good ol' Valley Girl of Pink Doom take over for a day. I just didn't think she'd still be in control by blog o' clock. Sigh.
Anyway, not much is going on, here. Had Kari over last night for some much needed best-friend time. And when I did get my pressie, I quite literally screamed with delight! So....pretty... And I'm going over there tomorrow night for New Year's goodness, and then off to Mexico!
Okay, I'm going to wrap up this crazy weird blog entry. Peace out, y'all!

Musical Quote of the Day

"And she said
'Ooh, baby can we do it again?
You know I love the way you love me
And we're such good friends' "

-Prozzak Title: Tricky
Seriously, an amazing album. Check it out if you can.

Ponderous Thoughts About Airports

Airport personel are way too chipper in the morning.
I didn't know 5:46 AM existed, but I don't like it.
Small children shouldn't be allowed to wander around.
Absense makes the heart grow fonder, but standing in line makes my feet hurt.
Paranoia about luggage is a cruel beast that eats everybody.
Going to airports makes me wish I was going somewhere far away.
Airports are big.
I have the ability to sleep standing up with my eyes open...apparently.
You hear the saddest songs on your mental playlist when at airports.
You feel like a world weary traveller, even if you're just dropping someone off.
I wonder if I could really fit into a suitcase...
Before long, they'll be called Spaceports.
Birds are lucky to have their own wings.
Everything seems very far away from everything else.
It doesn't help to have a hacking, chest constricting cough.
Airports are surreal, we move automatically.
You're either starvingly hungry, or have no appetite at all, there is no middle ground.
They make me long for my warm bed.
Seeing Gates A1-A19 makes my eyes tear up.
I wanted to hug you and kiss you and never let you go.
Good luck, I love you, be safe, and never forget it!

Musical Quote of the Day

"Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more
Listen to my heart
Can you hear it sing
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change
Winter to spring
But I love you
Until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world
Seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves
With such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you
Until the end of time"

-Ewan MacGregor and Nicole Kidman Title: Come What May
Everyday I love you more and more.

No More Sadness From Anybody!

It's just like I said...it's Christmas, and we're all supposed to be happy! So no more tears, from me or anyone, kay, no one be sad, please! Let's all just be joyous at Christmastide. Listen to as many Christmas carols as possible. Christmas carols never fail to make you feel better!

The first Noel
The angels did say
Was to certain poor shepards in fields as they lay
In fields where they lay keeping their sheep
On a cold winter's night
That was so deep
Noel Noel Noel Noel
Born is the King of Israel

Deck the hall with boughs of holly
Falalalala Lalalala
T'is the season to be jolly
Falalalala Lalalala
Don we now our gay apparel
Falala Lalala Lalala
Troll the ancient Yuletide carol
Falalalala Lalalala

Said the night wind to the little lamb
"Do you see what I see?
Way up in the sky little lamb
Do you see what I see?
A star
A star
Shining in the night
With a tail as big as a kite
With a tail as big as a kite"

Silver bells
Silver bells
It's Christmas time in the city
Ring-a-ling
Hear them ring
Soon it will be Christmas day

Oh ho the mistletoe
Hung where you can see
Somebody waits for you
Kiss her once for me
Have a holly jolly Christmas this year
And in case you didn't hear
Oh by golly
Have a holly jolly Christmas this year

Hark the herald angels sing
Glory to the newborn King
Peace on earth and mercy mild
God and sinners reconciled
Joyful all ye nations rise
Join the triumph of the skies
With th'angelic host proclaim
Christ is born in Bethlehem
Hark the herald angels sing
Glory to the newborn King

Silent night
Holy night
Shepards quake at the sight
Glories streams from heaven afar
Heavenly hosts sing alelulia
Christ the saviour is born
Christ the saviour is born

Johnny wants a pair of skates
Suzy wants a dolly
Nelly wants a picture book
She think's dolls are folly
Now I think I'll leave to you
What you give the rest
Choose for me dear Santa Claus
You will know what's best

Come on, guys...it's Christmas, after all.

Forgotten Flowers

Which makes me a pretty bad person. I recieve a beautiful gift, and what do I do? Forget it, as if it doesn't matter to me. I know, I know, don't think about it, but as I sit here, waiting to traverse to school (late, of course, I have some sort of cough that kept me awake all night) I can't help it. I also apologize for sorta...breaking down a little and crying about my Dad. I should be happy for him. And I am. I'm just high on extra levels of estrogen, is all. Thanks to everybody for putting up with me ^_^.
Okay, Kari, when you read this, gimme a call. I miss you, girl! I wanna have a good ol' fashioned lady slumber party, with ice cream and jammies and slippers and a good movie and popcorn and drinks and warm snuggly blankets and hot lesbian wild animal se-I mean...pie...

Musical Quote of the Day

"Cover the madness
Cover the fear
No one will ever
Know you were here"

-October Project Title: Bury My Lovely

Hehehehe...embarrassed...

Sorry for yesterday's thoroughly depressing post. They will be more cheerful from here on in.
Yup, so today I went and saw Narnia again with Mom and Meagan. It was great...I love the music so much, it always gives me goosebumps.
Anyway, what else is new? Well, on Thursday I am going to attempt to bake cookies and brownies and stuff. I found my misplaced Christmas cards. They were in my backpack. Why did I put them there? Hm, nevermind. Uuuuuuummmm...yeah, tomorrow should be much fun, and Friday is going to be AWESOMETASTIC! Me, Karla, and Megan are doing our gift exchange. Then I'm going to Kevin's place. What could be better than that?
My dad finally emailed me. Made me tear up, it did. It was quite touching. I miss him a lot, but I'm glad to hear that he is safe and sound.
And now, in the final stretch before Christmas, we have the

Musical Quote of the Day

'Silver and gold
Silver and gold
Means so much more when I see
Silver and gold decorations
On every Christmas tree"

-Burl Ives Title: Silver and Gold

Christmas Fig Tree

I made my own Christmas tree out of one of the house plants...the branches are ill-made to hold ornaments, but I don't care. It's lovely. There are twinkling coloured lights, and shimmering beads and baubles, and simple and cute wooden figures, like dolls, bells, angels, and horses. There are soft white cloth angels, each playing their own golden instruments, and a big cloth angel on top, balanced precariously on a blue light. At the base is my Nutcracker, held together with mostly glue and missing one foot, but he has stood guarding the Christmas presents for many years and he always will. There are a good many presents in shiny paper, with ribbons and stickers. I used to love sitting under the tree, poking around in the presents with my sister, or laying on the floor with crayons and markers and my Dad. He would draw ships and airplanes being piloted by Santa, and I would draw reindeer and angels and all that stuff. Mom was always ready to curl up under a blanket on the couch and watch the Grinch with me, or help me make paper snowflakes. I used to be so excited Christmas Eve, that I thought I'd never get to sleep. Me and my sister would often sleep in the same room together, hugging each other to keep us from sneaking downstairs for a peek at Santa. Then, come morning, there was nothing quite like the thrill of feeling the heavy-ish lump at my feet, and opening my eyes to see a stocking stuffed with goodies. We'd giggle with excitement, count the presents, and then take them to our parents to open them. The best part was that no matter how things were with my parents, they were always happy on Christmas, pretending to be surprised by what Santa had brought, the smell of cookies and milk on their breath. And then we'd go downstairs for Christmas breakfast, followed by the frenzied ripping of paper me and Meagan had been waiting 25 days to do. There were teddy bears and porcelain dolls for us, candles and soaps for Mom, Barenaked Ladies CD's for my Dad. One year I got a Sailor Venus doll and a Sailor Moon locket, and was so happy I nearly jumped out of my skin. Amber Cat would run around, trying to eat tinsel and shaking the piece of ribbon I tied to his tail with amusement. And when it was all over we'd have friends over, and eat dinner, and show our friends our new toys. But most of all, I'd wait until everyone was in the other room watching TV, and stand alone by the Christmas tree, and make a wish. I can't remember what I'd wish for, but it was always something really special. I thought of Santa, putting his feet up and relaxing, all the reindeer in their warm stables, and the elves having a Christmas party. I made my wish, and sent it all the way up to the top of our beautiful Christmas tree, and the best part was that deep down, in my seven year old heart, I believed that no matter what, it would come true.
I'd do anything to feel that way again.

Musical Quote of the Day

"I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
Just like the ones I used to know
Where the tree tops glisten
And children listen
To hear sleigh bells in the snow"

-Bing Crosby Title: White Christmas

Almost Christmas

And my evil mother says we're not getting a tree. Grinch.
Other than that, I had a great weekend, but for some reason, I am so incredibly tired....it's honestly as if someone took a bag of bricks and beat me around the head with it. I don't know why I'm so fucking tired, but I am. I guess I just need more sleep or something.
Mmmm...sleeeeep...

Bye, Daddy.

Okay, I know, it's not like he's dying. He's just moving to another country, several thousand miles away, with vast hours in time difference, and I only had a month and two weeks to brace myself for him leaving. It may not seem like much to anyone else, but I hugged my dad goodbye, tears streaming down my face, with him crying in my ear and telling me he loves me, and I don't know when I'm going to be in his arms again. A year...two...five....seven?! It's my DAD, for God's sakes. The one who saves me from my mom when she's in a mood, the one who makes me laugh hysterically for no reason at all. So if I'm bitchy, or angsty, or angry, or I break down and cry suddenly, YOU'RE ALL JUST GONNA HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT, BECAUSE I CAN'T!!!!

Wouldn't Believe Me If I Told Ya

Heheheheheee!
Yup. Things are cool. Uber cool, even. I actually can sort of ice-skate backwards now. And I only fell over once! Haha, I am triumphant!
Trigun is such an awesome anime series, guys. I seriously suggest you check it out, if ever given the opportunity...*insert little black cat with dilated pupils here*
Anything else to talk about? No, not really.
Too....much......sugar.....

Musical Quote of the Day

"It's been a while
Since I could
Hold my head up high
And it's been a while
Since I first saw you
And it's been a while
Since I couldn't stand on my own two feet again
And it's been a while
Since I could call you"

-Stained Title: It's Been A While

Candy Cane Heaven

Howdy, y'all. So, here I am, in Kevin's basement, eating a candy cane that tastes awesome. In fact, everything is awesome. I quit my horrible job, and I hate Debbitch and I hope she dies and burns in Hell like she deserves. But that's just my vindictive side talking. Seriously. Evil evil woman. She can eat my ass. Eat it!
Anyway, things are good.
Oh, hi Mrs Kevin's Mom. She's so cool.
It would appear that I am merely rambling. Oh well, sometimes it's nice to have a good ramble. I mean, what else should I talk about? I'm too content to go around analyzing everything.
Hiiiiiiiiii Indyyyyy! What a cute pusskin you are! Squishes! Awwwwww...he hates me. Poor pusskin.

Musical Quote of the Day

"Disarm you with a smile
And cut you like you want me to
Cut that little child
Inside of me and such a part of you
Oh the years burn"

-Smashing Pumpkins Title: Disarm
Yeah, this was the song playing on Kevin's playlist at the time. He's currently upstairs and I am amusing myself by surfing the web...no porno, though. Damn.

Alright. Fine.

Way to take away my happy, Mom.
So, mom comes in this morning, yelling her favourite phrase at me. "It's not good enough!" No, so I've heard. Anyway, she's going on and on, and all I could think of was the fact that last night, when I got home, I was so tired, I didn't even change. I got down to my panties and socks, crawled into bed, hair still up and glasses still on, and fell asleep with the lamp on. I was pleasantly content in this thought, knowing I had a good sleep, at least, and then I heard my mother say "If I get home today and find anything not in it's place, it's going in your room!" and then she stomped off. I imagined things that don't belong to me, like books and knitting and God knows what else my sister has left lying around, thrown in my room. It made me so angry. So very very angry. I didn't say anything to Mom (duh, I'm not stupid) and just thought...why is it, that this house isn't allowed to look lived in? So what, my binder is propped up by the computer? It's not hurting anybody. It's like....a house should be tidy, but this is bordering on OCD. I came to a decision. Instead of going to school, I'm going to stay home and clean the whole house, before I go to work. I have a small glimmer of hope that this will be enough to shut her up.
Of course, what I must remember is that nothing, no matter what I do, will ever be good enough. I'm not doing this for her, really, anyway. I'm doing it so that in my heart I'll know I tried.

Musical Quote of the Day

"Please take me by the hand
It's so cold out tonight
I'll put the blankets on the bed
I won't turn out the light

Just don't forget to
Think about me
And I won't forget you
'I'll write you once a week' she said

Why does it feel the same
To fall in love or break it off
And if young love is just a game
I must have missed the kick off

Don't depend on me
To ever follow though on anything
But I'd go through Hell for you

And I haven't been this scared in a long time
And I'm so unprepared
So here's your Valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words
A simple melody
The world's an ugly place
But you're so beautiful to me"

-Blink 182 Title: Going Away To College
How annoyingly and pleasantly apt.

Oh, and as an update, as I was cleaning the kitchen, it saddened me to find Skittles the budgie dead on the floor of her cage. Now, I never particularily liked Skittles. We've had her for about nine years. She was my sister's bird, anyway, but I ended up feeding, watering, and cleaning her because Meagan kept forgetting. So I didn't like her that much. In anycase, I knelt down, and felt tears spring to my eyes, looking at that small blue and white bird, twisted and awkward, her eye black, sunken, and blind. She must have died during the night. I said "Will anyone but me notice you're gone?" I removed the lid of the cage, shooed Grace away, and gently picked her up. She was very soft, but stone cold. I brushed off the seeds that had stuck to her corpse, and wrapped her in clean paper towels. She weighed almost nothing. I got my boots and went into the sunny, windy, melting backyard, and dug a hole in the garden with a kitchen spoon. I crouched, and opened the paper towel shrowd to look at her one last time. She had landed on her stomach, but I held her on her back. One wing was across her stomach, the other stretched to the side. Her little feet and beak were clenched and tight in death, and her head was tilted up and twisted to the left. The white feathers around her face had turned an odd shade of pink. Even though I had never liked her, I felt so sorry for that little bird. It felt even stranger, because I am wearing blue and white, and my shirt has wings on it, which was so odd. I folded her stiff wings to her sides, to a position that looks more comfortable, and re-wrapped her. I placed her gently into the grave, and her to rest in peace. Because it seemed like the right thing to do.

Con...tent?

Yeah guys, my blog entries are lame with a capital LAME. Hahahaha, probably why I love them so much.
So, did anything interesting happen to me today? Well...I uh....oh! I got a Christmas pencil that has a snowglobe on the end, and inside the snowglobe is a plastic teddy bear! How festive!
Anyway, that is pretty much all I had to say...yeah, hence the title.
Yumme, orange juice!
Going now.

So Beautifully Close To Freedom

I'm quittin' this weekend. I can't take it anymore. I will no longer be Superstore's bitch.

Musical Quote of the Day

"I swear that I can go on forever again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover
You friend
Give me you lips
And with one kiss
We begin

Are you afraid of being alone
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you

I'll leave my room open 'til sunrise for you
I'll keep my eye patiently focused on you
Where are you know
I can hear footsteps
I'm dreaming
And if you will keep me from waking
To believe this"

-Blink 182 Title: I'm Lost Without You
Such a good song. Guys, I am soo happy today. Yay!

Too Grumpy To Blog

Except I'm blogging right now. Oh well. Nevermind.
Today was, for the most part, unpleasant.
Tomorrow had better be much improved, or I'm filing a complaint with God.

Musical Quote of the Day

"Whose to blame when it's not the best
That I can achieve"

-Magic Night Rayearth Title: Hold On To The Dream (opening theme)
I'm in a nerdy mood tonight.

You Know It's Cold When...

My mother, the thermostat Nazi, leaves the heat on.

My Heart Just Wasn't In The Music Today

I think it was because I was a wee bit tired. But choir was so irritating today. School choir, that is. Allow me to give you a list of the repetoire for Friday evening...*sigh* It's from a performance booklet of music called "This December Season". I don't know why we couldn't sing normal Christmas carols. Probably because we'd get sued. So here is the list of politically correct songs you will hear the Crescent Heights High School Choir singing on Friday evening.
1. Jingle Bell Sleigh Ride-a mix between Jingle Bells and Over the River. I hate it. I want to kill it. It's annoying and retarded and I hate it more than I hate eggplants.
2. In December-not bad...it talks about candles. Every second song does. You'll notice the theme. Anyway, it's kinda slower. Has some cool harmonies. None of this music is very deep. Meh.
3. Born This Christmas Day-Finally, a good Christmas carol! It's in French (well, part of it) and it's actually really good and I like it a bunch.
4. Candle In The Night-A Hanukah song. It's okay. Again with the candles. It's an okay song, I just get the feeling the "composers" threw it in there so as to avoid some pretty angry Rabbis.
5. On The Roof-I like this one solely because I didn't have to learn many lyrics. Mostly just Ooooh yeah yeah's. It's kinda pop-ish. It's not great, but it's not terrible either.
6. Candle In Your Heart-Candles. Christmas-ey feelings. Right, got it. Thanks. I don't mind the melody...I just think the lyrics are not exactly stellar.
And then in the second half the Chamber Choir, of which I am a part, is singing Angels In Heaven. It's an a capella piece (a capella means no background music. Just singing) and it. Is. Awesome. I wish it wasn't so short. But it is so FUCKING GOOD! I'm so happy I get to sing it. If the entire concert sucks and everyone messes up, but we sing that one song half decently, well, I'll be grinning 'til Christmas.
And today, I was wearing clothes from the Kevin Collection. As my dad pointed out, I'm a cross dresser. Whatever. And Dad found my jewelry, so I am relieved!

Musical Quote of the Day

"What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Blows away
In the end

And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt"

-Nine Inch Nails or Johnny Cash. Whichever you prefer Title: Hurt

Brrrrr

'Tis chilly. I don't deny it.
My cold is probably going to start clearing up now. Hopefully.
Oh my God! Something absolutely crazy happened on the way home from work! Mom picked me up (I left work early due to the sick) and we were driving past where we used to live in Martindale. We were crossing the street I used to cross to catch the school bus when my mom went "aaah!" and slammed on the brakes. I jumped and looked out the front window. Trotting across the road was a long haired orange tabby cat. I almost burst into tears right there in the car. My long haired orange tabby cat, Amber, my dearest friend, who followed me everywhere, died on that exact bit of road. He was hit by a car, and I've always blamed myself, because he was coming home from waiting with me at the bus stop when it happened. Maybe it was his ghost? I dunno. Still, it definitely tugged on the ol' heart strings.
Also, I can't find my jewelry...it's here somewhere.

Musical Quote of the Day

"I can't stay on your life support
There's a shortage in the switch
I can't stay on your morphine
'Cause it's making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again
But she's being a little bitch
I think I'll get outta here

Where I can run
Just as fast as I can
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear
You're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better
You keep makin' me ill
You keep makin' me ill"

-Pink Title: Just Like A Pill
I didn't pick this song for any particular reason...I don't feel the way she does at all. I just seriously like this song, and I don't quite know why. Maybe it's the getting out of here part. I like the sound of that.

Soft N' Fluffy Snowflakes

My favourite...please snow some more! It was so beautiful on Saturday night...the way the wind rushed through my hair...the way the snow danced...the way I totally kicked Kevin's ass in the first installation of the mighty Snow War. Kat: 1 Kevin: 0.
Well, I have a shitty cold. Hoo-fucking-ray. But I had an enjoyable weekend, although I was and still am dead tired. But I'll turn in early tonight. Yay. Bed. Sleep. Zzzz.
Oh my God! I totally just realized something! I made it! We made it! Oh, there is so much joy now. And now I can relax. Let the notion wash over me and I can just smile until dawn.
Choir was irritating tonight...although singing some hymns can't hurt...I mean, it has to cancel out some of the bad things I do, right? Right? Well, that's what I'm counting on, anyway. Except churchy people scare me ever so slightly. And by that, I mean quite a lot. Oh well. And Georganne pissed me off. I swear, I wanted to punch her in the mouth.
Anyway, I'm feeling a bit delierious with fever right now. Did I spell that right? No, probably not. But y'all are just gonna have to deal with it. That's right. Y'all. Walk the Line was a good movie, guys.

Musical Quote of the Day

"'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright
Alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more
Than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be
Yeah
Where I wanna be"

-Lifehouse Title: Breathing

Who Cares?

I'm not too bothered about anything today. I sometimes get a bit down, but I just need to focus on the good stuff. It's all about perspective. I mean, who cares that my dad forgot to pick me up, or that a group of girls I've never met and never will again at Whitehorn yelled "skank" and "whore" as I walked by? Not me! They can all eat my ass. I have everything I need to be happy. Sometimes I get upset with my mom, or dad, or lack of money, or whatever. But then I look at it again. I have a mom, I have a dad, I have some money, and I have a good life. I have Kevin, and Kari, and Evan, and lots of people who love me just the way I am.
What I don't have is an actual dinner. And potato chip dinners make me sad. And fat.

Musical Quote of the Day

"To make a mountain of your life
Is just a choice
But I never learned enough
to listen to the voice that told me
Always love
Hate will get you every time
Always love
Don’t wait till the finish line"

-Nada Surf Title: Always Love

Well, at least I looked cute today...

Things are sort of off today, but at least I had nice clean hair and a cute outfit. Sometimes, even when you're having a weird day, it's comforting to know you look good. Which was extra nice after yesterday. Call me superficial, if you must.
Well. that's pretty much all I have to say today. A bit boring, I know, but it's better than me rambling on about some not-so-happy stuff. It's been a bit of a sad two days really...nothing to worry about really. Just the usual insane family stuff...my insane mother, my bossy sister, my dad and stepmom leaving and in the meantime annoying the living daylights out of me, and the fact that I'm feeling.....uh.....hormonal...in the sense of being pretty pissy, and my heart is sad for Kari and Harry Potter alike. And it's just a little upsetting, that something I had hoped would work out hasn't worked out at all. Sometimes I just feel a little...I don't know...confined by my absurd family situation. But I think about running away to the Wonder House a lot. I just want all of us to be happy. Not that I'm not happy. How can I not be filled with joy, knowing that the most amazing person on the planet is in love with me? But I just wish everyone could be happy. And when they're not, and I can't think of anything I can do to help, it hurts a little. That's all.
I think all I need to get over this little emotional slump is to just have a really fantastical day! I'll have one tomorrow...and Thursday...and Friday!

Musical Quote of the Day

"A city of faces
That never look back
Where doors never open
And eyes never meet
Someone behind me
Was tracing my steps
As I ran
Through the fog
Down a cobblestone street

In a city of crossroads
That never leave home
Where secrets unravel
And fates intertwine
Someone was calling my name
In the night
As I ran
From a voice
That was echoing mine

The farther you run
The more you recall
The loss of your innocence
After the fall"

-October Project Title: After the Fall

Did You See The Sunset?

It was beautiful this evening. I took a picture of it with my phone from the train window. It was amazing. Sunsets happen everyday, but every now and then there is a spectacular one that looks like every ethereal being got together and collaborated to paint a beautiful picture in the sky, over the mountains that I love so dear.
In other news, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire is THE most amazing movie in existance! I very nearly cried!!! It was so HAWT! And so sad...*sniff*

Musical Quote of the Day (because I'm in a mushy mood tonight

"I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do
I will be strong
I will be faithful
'Cause I'm counting on
A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning
Yeah

And I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky
I'll make a wish
Send it to Heaven
Then make you want to cry
The tears of joy
For all the pleasure
In the certainty
For we're surround
By the comfort
And protection
Of the highest powers
And lonely hours
And tears devour you

And I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Oh can you see it baby
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cause it's standing right before you
All that you need will surely come

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be you fantasy
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me"

-Savage Garden Tile: Truly Madly Deeply
I'd forgotten how much I love this song.

All Too Soon

My dad is moving away earlier than expected...December 15th...this blows. I thought we'd at least have Christmas together. Fuck.
Well, I had a crappish day, a great evening, and my night is pretty much back to being crappy.
Kari, you did great at choir today! Join join join! Pwease?
Okay, I need to go to bed now.

Musical Quote of the Day

"Someone help us understand who ordered
This disgusting arrangement with time and the end
I don't want to hear who walked on water
'Cause the hallways are empty and the clock ticks

As the world implodes we fall in to it
And we can't go home because this
Will not go away
There's a house built out in space"

-Our Lady Peace Title: Thief

Irri...irritated...

Everybody is pissing me off today! Maybe it's because I'm tired. Danielle asked how I was, and I said "not feeling too good" so she hugged me. Yeah, because what I really need now is for some scary goth chic who is smoking a cigarette that smells like death to hug me. Thanks. And then choir, and everybody was bitching and moaning the entire time about everything. I felt like just smacking each and every one of them. The group I am in are so...fucking annoying! "Oh no, this is high, I can't sing high, I'm an alto, boohoo!" Please, don't make me kill you. The whole day continued on pretty much in this fashion. All the drama kids were moaning about having to rehearse more, Tristan stopped by with his long greasy black hair and nasty sweater and the slurpee cup that is practically glued to his hand. In broadcasting I had to put up with the "I'm oh-so-fucking-cool" emo kids, who look like complete morons in their tight jeans and studded belts that annoyed me from the get go, and the EVEN MORE ANNOYING kindergoths, specifically this fat one with a high voice, who wears a black choker that is supposed to resemble a dog's collar or something, but he looks, sounds, and acts like a 12 year old. I want to take them all and go "You think you're making a statement? You are so lost in your own cliches and stereotypes that you don't even know who you are! Are you surprised people don't like you? You irritate the fuck out of everybody with your 'don't help me I can't be saved' bullshit when really the rest of us consider losing you no great loss in the first damn place!" and I would continue to yell at them unintelligably until the men in white coats hauled me away. Yeah, that would be nice. And then on the way home, my mother's off key, flat singing to music that I sort of used to like, but now I cringe to hear. We did go out for sushi, which was great, except I couldn't really enjoy it over my sore throat. And on the way home we had a long and depressing discussion about what I'm going to do with my life in the next few years. And I honestly don't know. Maybe this extra year at high school was a mistake...I can't tell. I'm not doing so well and I have no idea where my life is going. I mean, college-wise. Fuck, I wish I knew what I was doing. I haven't felt so sad in a long time, and I got used to not feeling like that.
I'm sorry for the long, poorly constructed blog entry, which high in levels of both angst and bitchiness, but it just hasn't been a good day. I know no one really wants to be around me when I'm like this, so if you want to maybe just leave me alone so I can simmer down, that might not be such a bad idea. But if you miss the old, happy, carefree Kat, blame Matt. Seriously. It all boils down to him really, and the fact that friendship means absolutely fuck-all to him.
There was an owl on the roof last night. It was cool. I hope it comes back again tonight.
Again, sorry for the craptacular blog.

Not Even My Vintage 1964 Rainbow Legwarmers Can Cheer Me Up

Although it's not for lack of trying.
I'm late. Again. I tried to stay up all night, because I knew if I fell asleep I'd sleep in. And I was too angry to sleep, also. But I ended up drifting off and waking up at nine. Fuck it.
So I had a shower, didn't have time to wash my hair, so it's all matted and nasty. It's just clipped up, I can't even be bothered to try to sort it out. I feel really crappy. My nose is runny and my throat is dry and sore. I hate you, world.
Ms Halbauer can eat my ass.
Matt, you can go fuck yourself.
I hate the world today.

Musical Quote of the Fucking Day

"How many times have your friends let you down?"

-Our Lady Peace Title: Life

The Wonder House

So, when my vivid imagination has very little to do, it kind of goes off on a tangent. I was talking about how I would decorate the house, if it was mine, and it got a little crazy. But here we go.
First, when you walk in, instead of being a boring hallway, there would be a ballroom! Not like...a dancy ballroom...a ballroom as in the ones they have at McDonalds and IKEA...except not disgusting. There would be multi-coloured balls, and they would come up to your waist, and once you walked into the Wonder House, all your troubles would just melt away. And it's an amazing house, because even though there are weird things like a ballroom, it has crystal chandeliers and red and gold wallpaper and marble and all sorts of fancy things. Anyway, you can either go up the stairs on your immediate left, but I'll get to that later, so you would continue into the living room. Except it's not a living room. It's the TV room...there is a huge TV, and an infinite amount of movies, and satellite, and tonnes of comfy chairs and couches and blankets, and it would be the room where we all would sleep. The couches and chairs are really cool, because they change shape in accordance to what would be most comfortable to you and anyone else who is sitting on the couch with you. There is a fireplace and also air conditioning, so the house is always the perfect temperature. And, it wouldn't be a TV room without snacks, so it is adjacent to the magic kitchen! The magic kitchen never needs cleaning (none of the house ever needs cleaning...it is self-cleaning!) and it cooks by itself too. There is always plenty of food in the fridge and cuboards. And whatever you are hungry for, there is always some in the kitchen! And it would always smell of freshly baked chocolate chip cookies! The dining room is really fancy, much like the table the Queen would eat at, but on a smaller scale. Again, chandeliers, big vases of fresh flowers, candles. But the best part is that there is no one to tell us what we can and cannot do, so food fights are not only allowed but encouraged. But one may ask whatever happened to the pantry? Well, the pantry is no longer a pantry. It's the Closet of Change. You walk in, and, its an apparantly empty room. You close your eyes, and think of what you would like to wear. Anything! And before you know it you're wearing what you imagined. This is great for theme parties. If I declared it so, there would be a Renaissance/Baroque/Anime/Toga/Anything I damn well pleased party and you wouldn't need to worry about a costume! You would be magically changed into whatever! Just like Sailor Moon's Luna Pen, but it's a closet, instead. Just think of the fun we could have! The downstairs washroom would also be really fancy, and the laundry would do itself!
So, if you went out into the backyard, you would find a huge tree with a treehouse and a swingset and a swinging love seat and a hammock and an iceskating rink and a hill for tobogganing in winter and rolling down in the summer and a stable for horses, and other petting zoo-esque animals, like goats and sheep and chickens and cows and bunnies. And they'd all be very friendly. There would be lots of flowers, and my own private rose garden where only I could go. And the animals would never go hungry, or thirsty, or need veterinary care, because they are sort of like the house...they look after themselves. Inside we would have cats, and dogs, and a penguin butler named Lenguiney. They would all be soooooo cute!
Just next to the downstairs washroom, is the door leading to the basement. Currently it is cold, and bare, with all of our boxes just thrown down there. But not in the Wonder House! It you be....you guessed it! A pool! And the bottom of the pool would be glass and there would be a diving board, and a slide that goes all the way from the top floor (where my mom's room is now) down to the pool! There would be a swim up bar, and lots of pool toys. The water would always be perfect...and there would be a sauna. I was going to put a library down there, but I've decided to move that, and I'll tell you where it is later. We would also have a dolphin and a seal, and they would do tricks and let us ride them. It would be awesome.
That's pretty much all there is downstairs, so now, we will go back to the ballroom and up the stairs. The staircase is divided down the middle. Half of the staircase is..well...stairs...duh, but the other half is a slide, so you can slide down into the ballroom! Anyway, once you get to the top of the stairs, you can turn left or right. Turn left, and you're in the fun room! First of all, it's waaaaay bigger than the room that is actually there, with a higher ceiling. Anyway, half of the room is a trampoline, built right into the floor! There is a basketball hoop at each end, so we can all play trampoline basketball! The other half of the room has a pool table, and a mini fridge, and a bar, and DDR (mostly just so Ryan will come over). If you turn right at the top of the stairs, you might like to stop at the first door on the right, and take a look at the toy room. Remember, as a kid, going to Toys R Us, and wishing you could live there? Well, that's what my room would be converted to. There would be hundreds of stuffed animals (there already are) and lego and all those cool toys you always wanted! And games, like Jenga, Twister, Mad Gab, Taboo, Cranium, and all of those awesome-fun board games that we all love to play. There would be lots of those. And any sort of toy or gadget you can imagine, it would be there for your enjoyment! Beyond that is another fancy bathroom, with a large bathtub with massaging jets, and a big glass shower. The room that is currently occupied by my sister would in fact be the computer room, especially for Kevin. He could program all the music that would play throughout the whole house, and do all the awesome computer stuff that I can't even begin to understand (like retrieving my files...thankyou soooo much!) and we would have high-speed internet and we could talk to people all around the world with our chat rooms and play video games and computer games and it would be awesome. The door on the left of the hallway would lead to a number of things. Where my mom's bathroom is now, there would be an elevator to the other floors of the house. Beyond that would be Kevin's secret spy room. I would tell you what's in there, but I don't know. Honest. If I ever find out, Kevin's gonna kill me! I mean...what secret spy room?! I don't know what you're talking about, you crazy person!
Moving along...
In the master bedroom, would not in fact be the master bedroom, but there would be the entrance to the water slide, and just a nifty hang out, with comfy chairs and cool furniture. There would be a french door leading out on the balcony. The balcony would run all along the back of the house, save for the place the water slide leaves the house. There would be a fountain, and a BBQ, and a hottub, and a place for me to paint, and yet another mini fridge. One thing I should also mention is that the whole house is soundproof, so we can crank up the music and the neighbours would never know. It also has a cloaking device, so that all the neighbours see a normal house, they see my mom drive into the garage, they see my sister go check the mail. But really, it's just my house, with all of my friends. And some animals, including a penguin holding a tray of h'ors doerves.
Okay, okay, I know, I'm weird, and that this fantastical house doesn't exist, and never could. But I don't care. Sometimes having a place like this in your mind helps you ignore anything in the real world that is bothering you. Maybe I'm crazy. Or maybe I'm just having a damn could time in my own mind. You're welcome to join me.

Musical Quote of the Day

"I believe in the sand beneath my toes
The beach gives a feeling
An earthy feeling
I believe in the faith that grows
And the four right chords can make me cry
When I'm with you I feel like I could die
And that would be all right
All right
When the plane came in
She said she was crashing
The velvet it rips
In the city we tripped
On the urge to feel alive
But now I'm struggling to survive
The days you were wearing
That velvet dress
You're the priestess
I must confess
Those little red panties
They pass the test
Slide up around the belly
Face down on the mattress
One"

-Third Eye Blind Title: Semi Charmed Life

Grrrr, Angry Kitty!!!

Gah. I am tired. And pissed. And yeah. But Kevin is here. Hi Kevin. So things are good.
The weekend was awesome. Oh, what's that? No school tomorrow? You don't say! Well...y'all have fun at work, now. I'll just stay here, in my warm snuggly house, watching TV. It will be a hard job but somebody has got to do it.
Anyway, where was I? Oh, nevermind. Damn it. I hate people sometimes.
I'm done now.

Musical Quote of the Day

"Hope you remember me
When you're home sick and need a change
I miss your purple hair
I miss the way you taste"

-Our Lady Peace Title: Somewhere Out There

Hi, Kevin...

Yeah...I'm just sitting here with Kevin...he's trying to tell me computer stuff but I'm not getting it. Ahhh..he can read this....shit. Oh well. Yeah, so much love for Evan and Karla, both of whom had their wisdom teeth removed in the past week. I feel for you, I really do...hey...you wanna slip me some of those wicked powerful painkillers? Please?
Hahah, I jest.
I think.
Whatever.
So yeah, now we are probably gonna go do not much. Wow, that was a great sentence. I suck.
Anyway, it's time for the

Musical Quote of the Day (Kevin's choice...it's his computer)

"Change your heart
Look around you
Change your heart
It will astound you
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine

Everybody's gotta learn sometimes
Everybody's gotta learn sometimes
Everybody's gotta learn sometimes"

-Beck Title: Everybody's Gotta Learn Sometimes
Yeah. I like this song too. But if you, loyal reader, do not, beat up Kevin. Not me. It was his idea!
Well that's just too damn bad.
Just kidding.

Damn it, Bobby...

Are you a special brand of stupid? Or were you just dropped on your head as a child? No, you know what? You're just plain DUMB.

I Have A Proclamation!!!

Is that a word?
...
I think so...
Anyway!
I, Katherine Claire Long, being of relatively sound mind and fairly lazy body, have decided that I am finally going to climb my own personal Everest. I am going to face my problem head on, and tackle it with all my might! No more skulking in the dark, no more running with my tail between my legs...or I guess it would be if I had a tail...I wish I did have a tail. That would be cool!
Where was I?
Damn it...
Okay...personal Everest, defying the laws of logic...blah blah blah...Oh yeah! As I was saying, today is the dawning of a new era, the beginning of a new age! Prepare yourself, world, for I have decided to *drumroll please!*...
Learn.
How.
To.
Cook.






DUN DUN DUUUUN!!!





On second thought....
*microwaves noodles*
...yeah...nevermind...


Musical Quote of the Day

"But this is where we used to live

Broke into the old apartment
Tore the phone out of the wall
Only memories
Fading memories
Blending into dull tableaux
I want them back"

-Barenaked Ladies Title: Old Apartment
Sorry my blog is so spastic today. I am bored.

I Can't Think of a Title

The weekend was freaking awesome! I just wish it didn't have to end. Yesterday was the choir thing and it went well, except I was worried that it would be boring to Kevin, Evan, and Kari, and my Dad, I guess. But it went okay. I was happy with how All Too Soon and Wondrous Love turned out. I had no idea what I was doing for that last song, though. I just moved my mouth and switched between alto and soprano, singing whichever part I knew. Whatever.
And then I was pleasantly surprised with a beautiful gift that made my heart skip a couple of beats. A white rose that will never wilt...it's absolutely perfect. I kept it with me all day today, and I was worried if it wasn't close to me. I don't want anything to ruin its purity. It completely chased away the nightmare I had the night previous, and it's just amazing, like he who gave it to me. There isn't really anything else I can say about it.
Evan just revealed to me that he is having his wisdom teeth removed on Thursday. Say goodbye to solid food, my friend. Even soup hurts.

Musical Quote of the Day

"What wondrous love is this
Oh my soul
Oh my soul
What wondrous love is this
Oh my soul"

-African American spiritual, from the deep south Title: Wondrous Love

Why Is Everything So Lametarded?

God, my computer sucks ass now. It was being all crazy so we had to clear everything and start again...no Limewire, old-school MSN, slow and crappy internet, boring wallpapers, boring cursor...I had everything just the way I liked it, too. Well, nevermind, I'll just have to start again. Like a Jenga tower. Sigh.
Apart from that, things are great. Today was a lot of fun, and the weekend promises to be enjoyable, if not down right awesome! And I saw a good movie today (The Weather Man) made all the better by seeing it with the best person on the whole damn planet! And then I had the giggles on the way home and we listened to the radio so it would stop.
Well, it's bed time...although I have a late start tomorrow. Ms Halbauer is probably gonna kill me though. I don't really care, mind you.
Gah, so much music to learn before Sunday! When am I gonna have time to sit down and memorize music?!

Musical Quote of the Day

"Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her in God knows when"

-Nickelback Title: Photograph

Lazy Day

Yep, today was lazy. I had two classes this morning, and spares for the rest of the day, so I decided to come here, to my home, drop off my school stuff, and then go to choir. And the enourmous amounts of fun that await for me afterwards.
I am mixing another CD...it's weird. It's kinda like a Christmas/winter CD, but not necessarily music anyone else would find winter or Christmas-ey. Just music that makes me think of that enjoyable holiday season, and all the snow. Also, it's just music I like.
Eeeew...our mousepad is disgusting...I need to clean it at some point.
I hate math, so much. It makes no fucking sense. And Ms Halbauer is a crazy, crazy lady. Oh well...not long now until I never have to deal with her again.
I had two nightmares last night. Not "nightmares" in the sense of scary, but in the sense of me being very upset and crying a lot, but then I wake up, relieved that it was all just a dream. And they were both sort of related...the first was that for no reason at all, Mom decided we were going to move to that cabin in Montana, which actually does exist. Except in my dream it was a freaking MANSION, and my room was huge and everything. But I could not stop crying. I didn't want to move to Montana, to the states, where things are crazy and I didn't know anybody, and that I was far away from Kevin, and Kari, and everybody I loved. Then I saw them, and tried to tell them goodbye and I loved them, but then they were gone, and it was so depressing that when I woke up in my own bed, in Calgary, surrounded by stuffed animals, I could have sang for joy. But then I fell asleep again and dreamt that instead of my dad moving to Britain, he had moved to Australia, and again, I was very sad because I knew there was no way in hell I'd be able to see him there, which made me cry some more. I don't know why my nightmares are of people moving, but they were very unnerving. Maybe it's just because, selfish as it may seem, I don't want the people I love to leave me. But then again, I'm stupid that way.

Musical Quote of the Day

"This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone

And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said
To you

And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to"

-Linkin Park Title: My Decemeber
Damn, that is a good song...

Snow Some More

It was so beautiful, last night, the first snowfall of the year. Like there were tiny feathers falling from the sky. I want it to snow more, now that I've had a taste. Let there be a blanket of white to cover us, please!
On a completely different note, there has been a slight change to the concert on Sunday...for one thing, there will be a few songs from the Calgary Children's and Junior Choirs...and Mr Obst will be doing a piano solo (yay), and mean bitchy-stuck-up-Rachel will have a solo (boo), and we aren't singing Frobisher Bay, or Ain-a That Good News, or Jubilate Deo, but we are singing Lord Bless You And Keep You and Wondrous Love instead, so it all workd out. Yay.

Musical Quote of the Day

"The hours go shorter as the days go by
Never get to stop and open our eyes
One minute you're waiting for the sky to fall
And next you're dazzled by the beauty of it all

Lovers in a dangerous time
Lovers in a dangerous time

These fragile bodies of touch and taste
This fragrant skin this hair like lace
Spirits open to the thrust of grace
Never a breath you can afford to waste"

-Barenaked Ladies Title: Lovers In A Dangerous Time
I can't believe I haven't used this one yet...

Mmmm...Clean....

I feel better now that I have showered and it is snowing. I hope it sticks...yayay snow!

Oh, For The Holy Love Of God, What Now?

Honestly, maybe it's just because I am grumpy and tired, but my mother is driving me insane. I mean, moreso than usual, that is. She keeps telling me she wants to talk to me about something, and when I say "well, what about?" (which I think I am entitled to know) she says she'll tell me later, when we're actually talking about it. Augh, that doesn't make any sense! Then just tell me now, you silly woman! That's what I would like to say, but I know I can't. Besides, I know it is related to one of three topics. They are a) my attendance at school. Oh, it's not that bad, I'm passing everything! b) how I "never" do anything in the house. Right, because doing cat litter and dishes everyday is nothing, among other things. Or c) How I am spending a lot of time with Kevin. Because, you know, heaven forbid I actually want to spend time with my boyfriend! And you know what, not that my virginity is any of anyone's business, but I still am a virgin, okay? The fact that I am an adult and I can make up my own mind about sex obviously hasn't occured to my mother.
Maybe it's just because I'm feeling sick today, or because I'm irritated, but I just want to be given some credit, and be trusted to make my own choices.
I'm sorry for the angst, I'm just in a rotten mood. One of those days, I guess.

Musical Quote of the Day

"He's a real nowhere man
Sitting in his nowhere land
Making all his nowhere plans
For nobody

Doesn't have a point of view
Knows not where he's going to
Isn't he a bit like you
And me

Nowhere man
Please listen
You don't know
What you're missing
Nowhere man
The world is at your command"

-The Beatles Title: Nowhere Man

Repertoire

Well, as some of you know, I am performing for the first time with the two non-school choirs I am in. Some of the music is...well, not bad, but it's rather "churchy" and there is one song that I hate. Hate with a firey passion that consumes my soul. Anyway, here it is, so that you can know what awaits you. Those of you who are coming.
Now, this is not necessarily the order that they will be in, this is just how I have it written down.

1. Harmonika-this song is crazy! During the last rehearsal Ms Strome said "take out Harmonika, everyone!" and I had no idea what she was talking about, and to keep a long story short, I learned an incredibly complex Hebrew song in about thirty seconds.
2. Antonio-This song is cute, and happy, and easy to sing. Thank God.
3. Jubilate Deo-"Yes, this fucking hard Latin song will be fun to sing!" At least that is what I keep telling myself. It has a nice tune though, I like it a lot, it's just really really REALLY hard.
4. UBERLEBENSGROB-That is the title of the song, I kid you not. In capitals and everything. I hate it. So much. It isn't so much a song as a series of noises. Bleagh...
5. Frobisher Bay-We may end up not singing this one, but I really hope we do because it is beautiful. Absolutely heart-breakingly beautiful. If people don't get to hear to Sunday night, I hope they can hear it another time. If it doesn't make you feel sad, then you have no heart. It makes me want to cry everytime we sing it.
6. Ain-a That Good News-a spiritual song, aka "slave music". It's that gospel stuff from the deep south that, even though it's all religiousy, it's fun to sing and to listen to. I dunno. I like it.
7. All Too Soon-I. Love. This. Song. It's amazing. And when you hear it and UBERLEBENSGROB you wouldn't believe it's by the same composer, but it is. It's about how quickly time goes, and the Martimes, and their struggle, and their endurance, and it is just awesome.

Well, I hope you will all enjoy it.
Happy Halloween, by the way. Lady Leopard will now rest for another year. Muahahaha! So much fucking candy!
And now, it's time for the

Musical Quote of the Day

"When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you"

-Coldplay Title: Fix You

Mmmmm...Spaghetti....

I love spaghetti. It is tasty. And my dad is currently slaving away in the kitchen making a delicious apple crisp, so screw you Evan! I'm sorry, that wasn't very nice of me. Evan, my apologies.
I found Emily's eyebrow ring, the one she loaned to me, and I was most happy, because now I don't have to buy her a replacement one. Phew!
My weekend was most enjoyable, except I feel bad for Evan. Kari, if you are reading this please please PLEASE get in contact with me, there are many important things we need to discuss! And Kevin, thanks for coming over on Friday, and having me over on Saturday, and just generally being great. As for what I wrote on my hand, I'm sorry I wouldn't show you. It will forever remain a mystery. I know, I'm weird. But I wouldn't have it any other way, and I don't think you would either. You're awesome. And now I am all giddy and am going to stop rambling.
Whoa...I found some old drawings of mine...and...whoa...how I have improved...I mean, they're pretty complicated, considering the pictures I found were from ages 13-16, but it's surprising what a few extra years of practice can do. Speaking of which, I am now going to draw some more. And also, time for apple dessertiness.

Musical Quote of the Day (something festive, I think...)

"I am the 'who' when you call 'whose there?'
I am the wind blowing through your hair
I am the shadow of the moon at night
Filling your dreams to the brim with fright"

-Nightmare Before Christmas Title: This Is Halloween

Grunge Day!

And it was awesome! I didn't care that my sweater is big, because it was uber comfy, or that my hair looked like crap or anything! I looked plain and dull and tired and I loved it! Mmmmm...cozy sweater...
We watched the Nightmare Before Christmas today in broadcasting...it was awesome.
Tomorrow is gonna rock.

Musical Quote of the Day

"If I had a million dollars
I'd buy your love

If I had a million dollars
We wouldn't have to walk to the store
If I had a million dollars
We'd take a limosuine 'cause it costs more"

-Barenaked Ladies Title: If I Had A Million Dollars

The Gift of Sight

About time! Man, I am so happy to have glasses. Not only are they ultra-cute, but I can actually see things close up to me, which means I have depth perception, which means I won't have headaches! Hoooray! *tears up* They're......so beautiful...
Anyway, who wants to hear about what a fun night I had yesterday? Well, too bad if you don't, because you're going to hear about it anyway. So Kevin picked us up, and we went and got Kari's ID because she is a silly silly monkey and left it at her house...again. But then we went to Schanks and had a crazy time being...whaddyacallem....adults! Right! Drinky drinky! But not too much. And I was reunited with Madison and Bobby, who I haven't seen since junior high. And then we went home, and Kari and Evan were just SOOOOOOOO CUTE in the backseat...I had to keep from going "Myayahahahahahahhaha OMG you guys that is TOTALLY AWESOME!"...sometimes I have difficulty supressing the Valley Girl who lives inside me. And then we arrived at my front door, and it all went to shit. Seriously. I am the only fucking girl on the fucking planet who can fall forward off a swing and get locked out of her house when she has a freaking key! I tried to get in through the back window but it was locked, and no one answered the door or the phone, so I had to go spend the night at Kari's house...thankyou, by the way. I didn't go to school today, not because I was terribly hungover, but because I had a bit of trouble with um....that thing....that girl's have...yeah. That.
Then my mom picked me up, we did the grocery shopping, I picked up my new glasses, and there was much rejoicing.
That was about it...guys...I like being a grown-up.

Musical Quote of the Day

"I'm so cool
Too bad I'm a loser
I'm so smart
Too bad I can't get anything figured out
I'm so brave
Too bad I'm a baby
I'm so fly
That's probably why it feels just like I'm falling for the first time

I'm so green
It's really amazing
I'm so clean
Too bad I can't get all the dirt off me
I'm so sane
It's driving me crazy
It's so strange
I can't believe it feels just like I'm falling for the first time"

-Barenaked Ladies Title: Falling for the First Time

Happy Birthday, Evan!

Yup, that was the best title I could think of. Soon we are going to the bar, but first we have to go to Kari's house because she is a big stinky loser who left her ID at home. Again. God! Fetard! So don't you correct my spelling, you stupid! Uh uh, do NOT go there.
Yeah...okay, I'm done. Kari is glaring at me. She claims she's not but she is on the inside.

Musical Quote of the Day

"Listen to your heart
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye"

-DHT Title: Listen to Your Heart

Temptation, Thy Name Is Diet Coke

I had supposedly given up on pop...but my old habits are back...must...avoid...fizzy...goodness...
Anyway, I didn't really do much today. Cleaned my room (the Laundry Monster was a worthy foe) after working for only two hours. I am going to switch jobs soon...hopefully...oh, please God, don't make me keep going back to the Fortress of Torture. I can hardly bare it.
Tomorrow is Evan's 18th birthday, so I will be attending the festivities of that. Now he doesn't have to wait in the car when we go into the liquor store. And he can buy US booze for a change. No more "I'm-only-17" bullshit, Evan, make with the beer! I only wish it wasn't a Monday, because then we could party long into the night. But alas. Alas.
It's also his twin brother, Madison's birthday...but Madison is the evil twin, so...uh...happy evil birthday? Whatever.
Nothing else really happened today, so yeah...blog done now. I know my blog is pretty stupid, but no one's making you read it!

Musical Quote of the Day

"And she'll promise you more than the Garden of Eden
Then she'll carelessly cut you and laugh while you're bleedin'
But she'll bring out the best and the worst you can be
Blame it all on yourself 'cause she's always a woman to me"

-Billy Joel Title: She's Always A Woman

WOW!!!

Holy friggon crap! I am so friggon happy! That's right. Friggon.
I AM IN UR BASE! I AM KILLING UR MANS! Oh, Mac Hall, you make me smile.
It was truly a special evening. I can't remember the last time I felt like this, probably because I never have. About anything, or anyone, ever. When I'm locked in those little moments, I don't have to worry about anything in my life...I don't have to worry about my dad leaving, or my mom being "slightly" psychotic (the way WWII was "slightly" tragic), or my horrible job, or my lack of money, or the way I've been hurt before, or fear or sadness or fatigue or hunger or anger...the only thing I have to worry about is that it's all just a wonderful, beautiful dream. But then he pokes me and laughs, and I know it's not. And it just feels....good.
I know it's all just ever so sappy, but y'all are just gonna hafta deal with it, kay?

Musical Quote of the Day (There are four...just because there are)

"Daylight burns your sleepy eyes
It's hard to see you dreaming
You hide inside yourself
I wondered what you're thinking
And everything you're chasing
It seems to leave you empty

And it won't take long to burn
All eyes on me
Through the nothing that you've learned
All eyes on me"

-Goo Goo Dolls Title: All Eyes On Me

"Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
You know
You know I love you so
You know I love you so"

- Cold Play Title: Yellow

"And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things I'd like to say to you
But I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall"

-Oasis Title: Wonderwall

"And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to Heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't wanna go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breather is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I don't wanna miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am"

-Goo Goo Dolls Title: Iris

Ti-red...

But happy.
Yup, today was much better than yesterday.
Frick I'm so damn tired. But in the content sort of way. Tonight was great. And fun, and I just had such a lovely time. I could go on about it here on my faithful blog, but I won't because I am too tired and also to blog about the way I feel would hardly do it justice.

Musical Quote of the Day

"There's a feeling I get when I look to the West
And my spirit is crying for leaving
In my thoughts I have seen rings of smoke through the trees
And the voices of those who stand looking
Oh and it makes me wonder
Oh it really makes me wonder"

- Led Zeppelin Title: Stairway to Heaven

Perfect Dandelions

Like the ones yesterday, that blew up and away into the sky. Why can't everything be perfect dandelions?
Sorry, today was a crappy day. Tomorrow is looking much better, though. Much.

Musical Quote of the Day

"So lately
Been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone
You'll need love
To light the shadows on your face"

-The Calling Title: Wherever You Will Go

Monday, Monday, Monday

Shortly to become a Tuesday. Hoorah.
I went to the Superstore to return the key and get my glasses made. They'll be ready by the weekend, hopefully.
Halloween this way comes. . .muahahahahahahhHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAAA!
Yup, I'm rambling. Probably because math homework has turned my brain to mush. Amongst other things.

Guys!

I had my first party! And nothing went wrong! It was soooo much fun! Just me and four friends, hanging out, drinking. I fell down the stairs and played Twister and we did cartwheels in the backyard and watched X-Men and just generally had a great time. This morning we had toast and scrambled eggs (that Ryan made) and played Jenga and all was well. Kari called in sick to work. We went to Prairie Winds park, and out for dinner, and I am just so happy!
There's something I need to do...but I can't remember what it is...I hate when that happens.

Musical Quote of the Day

"The world is a drought when out of love
Please come back to us
And all of the above"

-Incubus Title: Sick Sad Little World

I Shouldn't Be Allowed Near Impressionable Children

I am the older person in the Soprano Two section in the tour choir, and everyone else is about 5 years younger than me. The girls are very sweet and funny, and laugh at everything I say, and their minds are mine to mold. Oh dear. God have mercy on their souls...Hahahahahaaaa...
Kari, for the love of all things holy (like Swiss cheese) please get in touch with me before Saturday. Thanks, you hot piece of ass! Oh that's right, I went there!

Musical Quote of the Day

"Stop!
Don't!
No!
Please!
Mama, I'm a big girl now!

Once upon a time I was just a shy young kid
You never let me do just what the older kids did
But lose that laundry list of what you won't allow
'Cause Mama, I'm a big girl now!

Once upon a time I used to play with toys
But now I'd rather play around with teenage boys
So if I get a hicky please don't have a cow
'Cause Mama, I'm a big girl now!

Ma, I gotta tell you that without a doubt
I got my best dancing lessons from you
You're the one who taught me how to twist and shout
Because you shout non-stop
And you're so twisted too
Oooh!"

-Hairspray (Broadway Musical) Title: Mama, I'm a Big Girl Now
That's right, I'm a big girl now...a big girl having a SECRET DRUNKEN PARTY!!! OH YEAH, THAT'S RIGHT!

Hmmmm...

Running late, again, so I might as well just blog for a while.
I apologize for the high content of bitchiness in the last entry. I would say it won't happen again, but I'd be lying! Hahaha!
Anyway, so today I am not feeling too good...I'm not sure why. I'm not sick, I just feel sort of "stuffed". Probably all that chili I ate for dinner last night. I was very hungry. Yeah, that's it. Chili, your very-American deliciousness has forced me to succumb to your will once again...
I am such a damned loser.
But in other news! I am hosting a secret party on the weekend! Just me and six other people, mostly from junior high. It's going to be absolutely smashing! Just don't tell my mom. Because she'll say no and then break me in half. I'm not joking.
Also, my hair is pretty today. I actually made a little bit of effort to make it look good, and it paid off. I'll be missing broadcasting because of it, but whatever. Sacrifices must be made!
Heheheeeee...now, whenever I type, I can't forget the expression on Kevin's face when he saw that I press the caps lock key just to type one capital letter, then I tap it again and keep typing. Yes, I'm well aware that I can just press shift, but when I was learning about how to type and computers and stuff, I didn't know that and thought you had to press cap lock everytime, and now it is habitual. Hahaha, I'm such the nerd, sometimes.

Musical Quote of the Day

"Life has a funny way
Of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay
And everything's going fine
Life has a funny way
Of helping you out
When you think everything's gone wrong
And everything blows up in your face"

-Alanis Morisette (I don't like her music enough to figure out how you actually spell her name) Title: Ironic
I don't really like her music at all, but this song just popped into my head.

Fan-fucking-tastic...

Just when I think I can't possibly cry anymore, that I drained myself last night, sobbing silently until four in the morning, I miraculously produce more tears. Brilliant.
In case you can't tell, I'm pretty upset by what happened at Dad's yesterday. I was having such a fun holiday weekend, too...everything was perfect. And today, at school, I casually told some people, but I didn't cry or anything. I did most of that last night.
Sorry, I'm reading Stephen King, and have picked up his knack for keeping the reader in suspense. Bear with me.
So, yeah, my dad picked me up from Kevin's, where I thoroughly enjoyed myself, not to mention ate a lot of gummi bears.
Oh God, it's not fair.
He picked me up, I thought everything was cool. I was going to spend a lovely Thanksgiving with my dad, who I love so very much...he may embarrass me sometimes, but I still love him. Everything was so normal, too. Looking back, I'm not surprised I didn't see it coming. I helped in the kitchen, nothing exploded, we laughed and talked through dinner. I ate more than Dad! That never happens. But I was so hungry. It was delicious.
After dinner, we went to sit to watch a movie, but first Meagan wanted to show them our England photos. That's when it all went bad. Sharon looked at my dad. "Should we tell them, now?"
"Tell us what?" I had asked. Meagan grinned.
"You're going to Wales, again?" she guessed.
"Yes," said my dad. "We're moving there. Me and Sharon. To live."
...
I'm not sure if my facial expression changed, but the feeling of a warm full belly was instantly replaced with the feeling as if someone had just force fed me a bucket full of ice. They said why, but all I heard was distant voices. My head was spinning. No...no Dad, please, you can't go...
Maybe everyone thinks I'm overreacting. I'm an adult, now, and he misses his parents, and sisters and all of my relatives. They're both moving to Wales, and I knew they eventually would, but I thought...later...but they want to be gone by Christmas! I have about two months left to spend with my dad, before IT happens. And I know IT will. Maybe I'm just being selfish. FINE I AM SELFISH! I don't like change...such big changes. Besides, that's the time when another person very near and dear to my heart will be leaving to pursuing his dreams as well. I thought the two of us had a long time, but with my dad going too, I suddenly realize how close it really is, and it makes me sad.
Augh, I'm just so angry! It isn't fair! Do you know how often I get to go to England to see my family?! ONCE EVERY 3-5 YEARS, IF NOT LONGER!!! And even then, just for a week or two. I had to fit in 3 years of time into 7 days that I had with my Nana...I don't want to not see my dad for...years...
It just...sucks.

I Know, I Know

I said I was away til Tuesday, but I found a few spare minutes to complain in blog form. Seriously! Did EVERYONE forget to take their brain pill today?! The one that makes them NOT STUPID! God!
And now I am going to work...sorry I'm so irritated.

Poisoned Apple

I'll just have to wait until Sunday at dusk, when I will be be rescued by a handsome Musketeer. I'll try to put up with the poison until then.


(I'll be gone from blogging until Tuesday)

I Hate You, Ms Halbauer!

Just because you are an ugly evil rotten old sow, doesn't mean you can embarrass me in front of the class...God, I hate you, and your mathematical theories and your cruel yet carefully selected words...
Also, I am kinda grumpy and tired. In general.
Oooh, pizza!
I am reading The Green Mile by Stephen King, and it's soooo good!
Yup, I really wish this blog was more than just me bitching, sometimes. Although I'm sure I'll have lots to talk about after the weekend.

Musical Quote of the Day

"I sense there's something in the wind
That feels like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have
The worst is just around the bend
And does he notice
My feelings for him
When will he see
How much he means to me
I think it's not to be

What will become of my dear friend
Where will his actions lead us then
Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud
Try as I may it doesn't last
And will we ever
End up together
No I think not
It's never to become
For I am not the one"

-Nightmare Before Christmas Title: Sally's Song
I feel kinda Halloween-ey. Hahaha...weeny.

Let's Watch The Evening Turn Into Night

I had a lovely evening. For the most part. I mean, falling forward off the swing (only complete morons do that...hahah...) wasn't much fun...I cut my knee and the palm of my right hand is really sore, and I broke my damn glasses, but I otherwise had a really nice time. Diamond thievery, planning the snowball siege, laughing at the Russian mafia when they were standing RIGHT THERE, watching the stars/abundant sattelites, feeling safe. It was just lovely.
Anyway, I got home, got changed, am about to make myself something to eat and read webcomics, and then I'm going to bed!
Race you to the swings!

Musical Quote of the Day

"Gotta get in tune with Sailor Moon
Cause that cartoon has the boom anime babes
That make me think the wrong thing

How can I help it if I think you're funny when you're mad
Trying hard not to smile though I feel bad
I'm the kinda guy who laughs at a funeral
Can't understand what I mean well you soon will
I have a tendency to wear my mind on my sleeve
I have a history of losing my shirt"

-Barenaked Ladies Title: One Week
Aaaaaauuuugh, get outta my head!

Peach Cobbler

That is the name of the lovely soft teddy bear currently in my lap. He is ultra cute! Thanks to Kevin. It's the Halloween teddy, the one with the candy corn pattern. I realize that Peach Cobbler is a stupid name but he's peach coloured...and I couldn't think of anything else.
So what's new? Not too much, really. Well, actually there is, but everyone who needs to know about it already does.
I hate my work...two eight hour shifts in a row....and is it just me, or are people getting worse and worse? This makes me ultimately pleasant to any and all customer service people, because I know that even if they are not acting very nice, it's probably because they too are tired and don't always deal with people who understand. Everyone...be nice to cashiers/waiters/whoever. We put up with a lot of crap.
Anyway, I am trying to not be so late to school. I think I failed my math test today (but I was on time!) but I am going to try harder in the next unit. Broadcasting is pretty sweet, and so is choir. Art is fun! I have 100% on all my art projects so far! Sweeeeet! Considering that all I have to do is suck up to Ms Siemens and pretend I know what I'm doing. I mean, I do know what I'm doing, but I don't usually have to tell anyone. I'm pretty good at making stuff up. For example, I may draw a picture because I want to, because I feel something intangible, because I think it would look cool, but in order to get good marks, I just say stupid things like "Oh, yes, I wanted to express the anger mingled with the joy. I used the texture to bring out the violence of the colour, to create a busy, frightening, and yet exhilerating experience." And yeah. Easy 100.
It snowed again today...it didn't stick, but I was still thrilled. So beautiful! Keep snowing, sky! Cover my world in a cold white blanket, and I will smile forever!
Well, I had a shower, and now I am clean, warm, and dry. I have a new teddy bear. A very comfortable shoulder to lean on if required. I think I managed to cheer Kari up a little bit. All is well.

Musical Quote of the Day

"What's this?
What's this?
There's colour everywhere
What's this?
What's this?
There's white things in the air"

-The Nightmare Before Christmas Title: What's This?

"

"And then I killed them..."

He...he wasn't joking...what a crazy (good) movie!

Anyway, what is going on in the realm of Kat? Not much. Tomorrow I am going to go and purchase a...surprise...for Kari because she needs cheering up, dammit.
I had a really fun time out tonight, and I will again tomorrow. Hehehehe! I was soooo tempted to ride the merry-go-round...but alas, I have act all "grown up" and "mature", now. Or so I am told.
Also, some good news. Japan said that all the students, all 41 of us, can come to Japan. And I, being the 41st, am happier than one could possibly imagine about that. I nearly cried when I found out because it was such a huge relief off my chest. Phew!
Well, I'm pretty freaking tired, so I'm just going to quote some music and then it's off to bed. So that maybe I'll be on time for school tomorrow. God willing.

Musical Quote of the Day

"If I touch a burning candle
I can feel no pain
If you cut me with a knife it's still the same
And I know her heart is beating
And I know that I am dead
But the pain here that I feel
Try and tell me it's not real
But it seems I still have a tear to shed"

-The Corpse Bride Title: Tears to Shed

I Don't Know What To Talk About

Three things, basically...

1. Kari, I'm really worried about you...please email me and let me know you're okay...or even if you're not okay, email me and I will do whatever I can to bring you joy.

2. Everyone, wish me luck, for the auditions for the tour group for Japan are this evening. If I don't get to go, I think I'll just cry non-stop for the rest of my life.

3. See you on Thursday. : )

Musical Quote of the Day

"See the pyramids around the Nile
Watch the sunrise from the tropic isle
And just remember darlin'
All the while
You belong to me

See the marketplace in old Algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
And just remember
When a dream appears
You belong to me

I'd be so alone without you
Maybe you'd be lonesome too

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
And just remember
'Til you're home again
You belong to me"

-Jason Wade (originally by Patsy Cline) Title: You Belong to Me
This is the best song in the world to fall asleep to.

Yogurt, Followed By The Doing Of The Math Homework.

I am rather tired, but I usually am. Today was a really nice day. School was pleasant, and be it known that I was, in fact, on time!
Yesterday was nice too...worked like a dog for eight friggin' hours, a proverbial slave to the impolite patrons of "Super"store. Fuck, I hate my job. But at least I don't have to go back until Saturday. For another eight hours. Damn it all. But then I came home and listened to online radio, and all was well.
Also, I went out on a limb in a certain aspect of my life, and I'm feeling pretty confident about it. Maybe that's why I had such a nice day. Things are pretty cool, I mean, knowing that if it doesn't work things will still be okay. But here's hoping it all goes well, because...well...let's just say I'd really like that.

Musical Quote of the Day

"Way way back in the 1980's
Secret government employees
Dug up famous guys and ladies
And made amusing genetic copies
Now the clones are sexy teens
Now they're gonna make it if they try
Loving learning sharing judging
A time to laugh and shiver and cry

Time to watch
Clone High
Energetic and engaging
Clone High
Our angst is entertaining
Clone High
Our lives are never boring
Who am I?

There's a place that you can go to
And it's never very far
Famous people you can live through
If you don't know who you are
Why there's so much to live up to
Expectations are so high
I'm not crying it's my contacts
There must be something in my eye"

-Abandoned Pools Title: Clone High

Corpse Bride!

It was really good! And sweet, and a little sad. But very good. I was glad all four of us got to actually hang out together. The Three Musketeers, plus me, huzzah!
I met Kevin's mom and dad. His mom is booteeful! And we talked and laughed and joked and generally got to know each other and they were both happier in knowing that I am not infact a crazy crack-whore...I didn't have the heart to tell them otherwise.
Aaaaanyway, afterward the movie, we went to a billiards/bar place, and played a couple of games and ate yumminess and me and Ryan drank, and we talked about Milton. Ryan, if you read this, I'm actually really sorry I was such a bitch in junior high. You're a nice person and I never should have been so horrible to you. Much love! Also, thankyou for paying for me at the bar as a belated birthday present. Matt, thankyou for the belated birthday present in the form of popcorn. Hooooray!
And then, after much laughing and whatnot, it was time to go home. We dropped off Ryan and then me (Matt went home right after the movie) and the Jeep was nice and warm, and Kevin and I talked all the way home. And I think something happened conversation-wise that I missed, and am still pondering it. I just have the feeling something went way over my head, and I don't really know what to think. In anycase, it was a fabulously fun evening! But now I am tired and I have to work tomorrow. Damn it.

Musical Quote of the Day will resume tomorrow.

Fed Up

Curse these violent mood swings.
Guys....stuff sucks.

Old Habits Die Hard...

I slept in for the third time today. Just barely made it to choir. I am so freaked up in the sleep department. I gotta break the cycle.
Anyway, the weekend was really very fun, and thanks to Kevin for the Build-A-Bear gift certificate. I don't know what I'm going to make with it yet, but I'll figure it out when I get there. Sorry it was so scary for you.
So I drank in public and everything. And I waltzed into that liquor store and bought breezers like nobodies business! It was awesome. I had such fun with my friends! And we ended up staying at Kevin's all night, with Kari on one couch, me on another, and Evan slept on the floor like a gentleman and was cold all night because Kari and I had the sleeping bags. Which is good, because I did in fact remove just my pants. Sleeping in jeans is uncomfortable.
Then we went to drop off poor sick Karikins in the morning, and I had to go to work. I wish I had a toothbrush, but alas. So I got through work without incident, and went to Dad's. The rest is boring.
Anyway, today was good. Ish. Just trying to make my phone and the computer be friends.
I have to call Dad tomorrow.
And I have choir practice.
By the way, today I had a revelation. Of sorts. I was listening to Keane and decided that life, in fact, was very good. Great. Wonderful!!! It was lovely. Keane does that to you.

Musical Quote of the Day (A WHOLE SONG, LUCKY YOU!)

"I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing
Where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when
You're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches are they looking at me
Is this the place we used to love
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of

Oh simple thing
Where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when
You're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know

Oh simple thing
Where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when
You're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

Why
Oh this could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know
Somewhere only we know
Somewhere only we know"

-Keane Title: Somewhere Only We Know
This is such a good song. I was singing along with it in the car, and I just thought about all my friends and how good I feel and how, in the end, everything always works out. And how each of my friends and loved ones have a special place in my heart that belongs to just them, and that I'll always be there for them, and they'll always be there for me. And even when things are shitty, when it's the end of everything, we'll always have each other. I know it's corny, but it's true.
I've probably done this song before, but I don't care. Ah am ah loser, and mah head asplode.