Ugh, please let me die.

Today was mostly terrible. The weather is absolutely bleak, and I can't stand the last, bitter snowfall of every year. It makes getting out of my warm cozy bed even harder.
Okay, so I was having a nap in the Pit on my spare, and for some reason, as I drifted of into the nether regions of reality-ooh, poetic-something came into my head.
"Lizzie Borden took an axe
Gave her mother fourty whacks
When she saw what she had done
She gave her father fourty-one."
I don't know why I suddenly thought of that old rhyme, but if I had an axe, I know exactly who I would butcher. Many people. I'd hack them to pieces, and I would make their deaths slow and agonizing. Just because I could.
Aaaanyway, moving right along, the rest of the day was pathetically boring and stupid. I was going to go to my dad's but I don't think I could have handled my mother-of-step's bitchiness so I faked sick and went home. Sitting on the noisy bus surrounded by fellow students who were loud and arrogant. I gripped the locket attached to my cell phone and thought of those seven little words that make everything go numb, thinking bitterly to myself. I bet they think I'm naive. They think I don't know anything. Well they're wrong and other such random angry mutturings. I opened my bag and pulled out Tinstal my toy cat, or Tinny, for short, and he made me feel better. He's really soft and looks funny.
Then when I finally got home I had to track through the mud and the snow, kicking lamposts to vent my rage-I hate walking through the mud-and then I sneaked between the neighbours houses. I wasn't paying attention to the ground and stepped my left foot in a puddle that went right to my ankle. I was only a few paces away from my house, but my shoes aren't waterproof and I one icky cold wet dirty sock squelching all the way to my door. Today is not my day. And people are always using the theatre, so I can't even go to the Happy Hidey Hole.
Although, Danielle did tell me something that raised my spirits. It made us both feel good. I suppose I shouldn't underestimate myself as an actor.