F. U. C. K.

There, I said it. This is gonna be a long, very bitchy post, so if you don't like it, you can fuck right off.
I hate everything.
I hate the fact that my Ralphbucks have not arrived, and probably won't get here until March, if they get here at all.
I hate that one simple thing I asked was not done, after I was assured it would be.
I hate that my bank account is probably overdrawn as it is.
I hate being an adult.
I hate the fact that everyone is going to think I'm a deadbeat loser.
I hate that I'm being reprimanded for quitting at Superstore, which was the most degrading job in existance and would have stolen my sanity had I not left there.
I hate money.
I hate how I'm not allowed to be angry at my mother, but she can be angry at me.
I hate how she turns everything against me, lies, twists things around, doesn't listen to me.
I hate how I'm going to have to give up being in the play.
I hate how my biggest dream is slipping away from me, and one of my dreams already has.
I hate how I hate my mother, and how she hates me.
I hate how one minute, everything is fine, and the next, I'm sitting in my room crying.
I hate that my dad basically abandoned me. There. I finally said it.
I hate the way most of my friends spend the majority of their time acting like complete assholes.
I hate moodswings.
I hate the way Mrs White looks at me, like I'm an incompetent moron who should have known better than to try to go to Japan, down her nose at me like I'm wasting her time...I feel like saying, "You know what, all these other stuck up brats have rich snobby parents spoiling their children rotten and paying for their trip, and they've been in the choir for years and have previous accounts loaded with money, and I'm in my first fucking year and I have to pay for this thing all by myself, so fuck you!" and I hate that I'm going to have to stand there and take it, possibly from Ms Strome, too.
I hate how my mother is a dirty hypocrite.
I hate that I'm her daughter.
I hate choir.
I hate drama.
I hate my friends.
I hate Japan.
I hate it all.















I hate me.