What to say about yesterday...

In short, it was a disaster. Oh, I'm not saying that I didn't have fun, but there was...something wrong. Not right. And I can tell that the same thing that happens to me every year is about to happen again. Why is it that I can't find what I'm looking for? Maybe I have a horrible detterent that drives it away, or maybe I am trying too hard to find it. I don't know. Where is it? I can't find it anywhere. Where is it?

But the rest of the day was enjoyable. I karaoked! And I was actually really good! And I won lots of cute toys. I was going to trade up my small ones, but I elected to be a good person, and I went up to this woman with a little boy, who was reaching eagerly towards a game stand, and told the woman that I had won lots of prizes, and I was wondering if her little boy would like one. She said he would love one, and I gave him a teddy bear with a cute face. Another girl, perhaps his older sister, about age 7, was looking at her brother, and I gave her a purple dolphin. They were so cute! And the parents and presumably uncles/aunts/grandparents thanked me. It felt really...warm and fuzzy. Then we happened upon a mother and father with two sweet, well behaved little girls, one holding her mothers hand and the other in a stroller. When I offered them toys, the parents were astounded. The dad kept asking "You're giving away free prizes?" and saying "Thankyou very much!" I gave the duck stuffy to the girl in the stroller, and I was going to give the other one my stuffed dog (I didn't want to give it up, but I didn't think it would be fair to give one sister a toy and not the other) but then Kari gave her a small stuffed monkey -it was cute, I tried to win one later, but I won a medium sized pug-dog instead- and the look in the parents eyes and the kids eyes was so priceless, and I knew I had made their day, and that was such a good feeling. Especially since I've been very unhappy lately, and making sweet small good little children with no toys feel happy was great! I'm such a sap for this kind of thing!

Musical Quote of the Day

"You forget the sun
In its jealous sky
As we walk in fields of gold"

-Sting and the Police CD: The Very Best of Sting & the Police Track: 7 Title: Fields of Gold