This has to be said. It just has to be.
I cannot understand you. I think that I have gotten a sign, that the hints are true, but then I talk to you, and I simply can't bring myself to ask...maybe for fear that I will be told something I don't want to hear, but in any case, I feel stupid and rejected and sad. Maybe I will ask, and you will tell me that I was right, but it is more likely that you will say it wasn't me you were talking about. I fear that my heart might just break. Especially because it could easily be me, but it could also be someone else. Maybe I am lonely, I cannot tell. But this must be known. When I am in your company, or just chatting on line, I feel so warm and loved. Thankyou for that, at least.